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sooooo, i bought the extended version dvd for the two towers. so worth it. i'm glad i got it. i bought it for myself for my bday (jan. 7th) . which was, by the way, pretty good. i got money and we went to dinner at the melting pot fondue restaurant. had lots of fun there. the only thing that sucked , and it sucked pretty royally, was seeing heather. i went up to her work, which was my last resort since she hasn't answered her phone for 3 months. i went with the intentions of telling her how i think her fiance is manipulating and controlling her, and i don't think she realizes it. i went there knowing that by telling her this i wasn't going to get my friend back, but i told her anyways, because i think she has more of a chance of realizing how he is, than us being friends again anytime soon. basically i just wanted her to think twice about this guy. and i didn't think i would make an impact , but i think it did , whether she'd like to admit it or not. i told her that he's been using her social security number, and that he doesn't even have one, and if he does it's under a different name. she said she didn't believe me, and i couldn't believe how much she was protecting him. i mean she's known me for 6 years, she's known him for a year, and she wouldn't believe me? it's not like i've ever given her a reason not to trust me. and i wouldn't have anything to gain from it anyways, and in actuality i knew that by telling her what i knew, it would push her farther away from me. and ofcourse it did, but i took that chance because i truly believe that she's in danger and i believe she should know if something like that is going on. whether it be physical abuse, i don't know, i wouldn't be surprised if he ever hits her, but i know that he's mentally fucking her. so after like 20 minutes of me trying to get to her, her emotions never showed. which hurt me even more. when i was pouring my heart out, crying, all she could do was stare off into space, like she was in a trance. and i left. and i got into my car and i was sobbing uncontrollably for like 10 minutes. it would have been a little easier to say goodbye to a friend of 6 years, if she had shown some emotion as to if she'd cared about me at all in our friendship. so anyways, i left and as i'm driving, omar calls me, as if i really wanted to fucking hear from him right at that moment. he basically calls me every name in the book and threatens to take me to court, oh no i'm scared. and his tone, language and mood change from the first segment of his phone call to his last segment proves my theory even more that he's a psychotic fucking lunatic. and i['m so fucking sick of telling this story too. gets me mad every time . i feel like i've endured enough, and even though i still believe that omar is behind all this bullshit, i'm going to move on. but it's still hard. and if it IS heather and she's just become a coldhearted grudgeholding dependant-completely-upon-my-boyfriend type of person, then so be it. that sucks but that's life.
but other than that, my birthday was good and i'm 20 now and i feel no different.
toodles
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